Ambivalence

Wanting to clutch
Hold on
Be free as air
Spreading thin
In the sky
Buried inside the earth....



Living to love
Loving to live
Day per day
Second by second
Multiplying centuries
Finding spots for obituaries
Spaces for tombstones
Fake poetry
Real fiction

Birthing new children
Birthing new ideas
Destroying the womb
Fighting battles
Losing and winning
Looking at what hurts most
Leaving it behind
Running behind it

Having conversations
Deleting conversations
Diaries
Postcards
Words
Collecting them.
Throwing them in a stranger's room
On a strange night

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Strangled in our phones
Wanting to become flesh
Blood
Real us wanting to become pictures
Together
Wanting one
Wanting many
Choosing
Discarding

Nothing

Drowning
Floating
Traveling